Saturday, April 23, 2011

One More Week

This semester will be done in one more week(ish).

I have some really big things weighing on my mind and I am trying so hard to really focus on school work for this last week. The problem is that those big things keep squeezing my school work into a tiny corner of my brain. The problem with that is that the school work has an actual deadline.
As in, an actual, week-away deadline.

As in, I have a giant research paper due in a week that I've barely even begun.

I keep meaning to.
I have very good intentions.
When it comes down to it, though, it's been the thing whose deadline was furthest away and I am honestly just treading water here as this semester winds down, finishing the things that are due tomorrow.

In spite of my persistent state of denial, Tomorrow keeps popping up as Today with every sunrise.

I am accomplishing the bare minimum in all areas. It's not just the paper, mind you. It's finals in all classes and juries in front of the music faculty and work too. Who knew that accompanists were needed in so many different ways around here? I have the option to turn down some of that work, but, let's be honest - I like to eat. I also like to be able to buy underwear for my kids. I can only turn down so much work.

I don't like that.

I would prefer to achieve and conquer and surprise everyone with my greatness!

Alas.

Priorities have become difficult to juggle. How do you really choose between educational responsibilities and church responsibilities? How do you really choose between studying for a test and your daughter's science fair project?

Greatness will have to wait.

3 comments:

Amy Button said...

I don't even know what to say. I remember all that but not from an accompanists stand point (and just for the record, I was always prepared and payed my accompanist on time, ahem). Also not from a married with two kids standpoint and it was a *lot* for me. The studying and practicing is stressful and fantastic and wonderful...and surviving it is tough.

Summer. It's coming. And I hope you can take time to breathe and grow things and drink coffee on your front porch and enjoy being with your kids.

Love you, girl! <3

Christy said...

Love you too :)
I absolutely can't wait for summer! It's going to be wonderful and we will need to play some Mario Kart!

jlsgrant said...

Ahhh, but you have already achieved "greatness" and it is no suprise! :) Hang in there...this too shall pass!