I'm Ready

I've been procrastinating the task of un-decorating my blog for Christmas. I really wanted to seek out and take a photo for my header this year that was twinkly and sparkly - something new and fresh - just like the new year should be. And I haven't been inspired, so I haven't done it.
But then my nice friends told me how much they liked my spilled-coffee picture. How it says everything. And I thought, you know, yeah. It kinda does.
So, I want 2009 to be a year of laughing so hard, of focusing on the important things, of not paying attention to the smallish things - of spilling my coffee everywhere I go because I'm living so much in the moment that I forget I'm holding coffee in my hands.
I'm not big on resolutions. I pretty much do what I decide to do when I decide to do it. I don't like to wait for a new year to start a program or something. I have a few goals in mind, mind you - I'd like to learn a little bit about gardening and I'd like to get some photos into albums so my kids can look at images of their smaller selves (not scrapbooks - I so don't have time for that). But, you know, those are some of the smallish things I'm talking about. They're small things, and they're not going to be my focus.

Everyone's back in school and I'm back at my desk. I haven't put away my Christmas decorations yet. I just haven't had time. But, with a sigh and a bit of uncertainty, we head into this year. A year that started without asking my permission. A year that's sure to bring changes, welcome and otherwise.

But now that I think about it, I think I'm ready.