I already put this on Facebook as an exercise in self-humiliation. I mean confidence.
It's just tiny and it's only the good part. But it's my way of saying that, officially, I'm going back to school in the fall. I know I've talked about it and maybe even said I was going to, but this time I mean it. I filled out a FAFSA and everything. Looks like I have a scholarship too.
Chopin beat me, as a early-admission freshman in college. That's right, at the ripe old age of 17, I decided I would never be good enough to be a pianist.
But you know what?
I'm no longer too proud to go to community college.
I'm okay with not being the Most Amazing Pianist They've Ever Seen.
(Well, I do have some performance anxiety, but...that's a different issue)
I'm just here to learn and to love the process.
I am not as good as I used to be, but I didn't believe I was any good back then.
Hooray for second chances.
8 comments:
Oh I hope you enjoy it so much more than you thought you ever could.
Have FUN!!!!
Ok, I must have been on drugs because that totally didn't come out right...sorry :( I meant to not doubt yourself or compare your talent to others. You might want to delete that first comment. Wow, it's so sarcastic and mean. My thoughts were about how snooty music people can be when you're studying and how it made me feel like a worm studying music. Sorry.
Alright, Miss Amy. Deleted as requested :) Though, I really didn't think it was all that bad...
hooray for the scholarship and the second chance! happy to hear you're putting yourself back out there. :)
Good for you. I always thought you were good enough to be a "pianist", although I totally get where you're coming from on that.
oooh-I like it! Your Chopin sparkles.
Thanks Becky :)
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